PooTacular!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhh where to begin, where to begin.....the poo has lost the money, lost time, lost his sense of dignity, lost the bet, lost it all......or hasn't he??

I guess this is gonna be the wrapup of the bet, and a few of my thoughts and everything like that! In case you guys didn't know, i finally chose to quit this bet. It flat out had to be done. No matter how good I felt, how mentally strong and all this and that- the evidence was clear....I couldn't win anymore!!

When a guy goes from winning pretty much everyday, with very little downswing through his career, to the crazyness of my results in this bet....you know you just can't be feeling as good as you think!

SO let's see....Some people are stating that they feel sorry for me and stuff- please everyone, I am the last person in the world that you have to feel sorry for. I have loving friends, family, and the best life imaginable.

The day that losing some money gets me down, is the day that I will seriously have to reconsider my life. Money is not what this life is about and we all know it. It's just a means to satisfy our constant unsatisfied desires. I have already learned that we will always want more and more, and no amount of money can ever make you achieve happiness.

Happiness comes from enjoying life. It comes from being with other happy people. It comes from seeing those you love being happy. My mother called me more then a few times during this bet, always saying "we're worried about you kevin, we worry about you, etc. etc." It's crazy to me! Stop worrying people!!! Worry is derived from fear, and that is just a terrible thing and we should just try our best to enjoy every second....shit, that's what i try to do....now is that something to worry about? i say nay.

Okay....so this bet, as crazy as it seems, was so fucking profitable for me that it is sick...As far as my poker game- it is going to be amazing...I got to get in some serious talks with a high stakes professional, and it really was 10x worth the amount I lost.

Also, I am going to continue to make my run at elite!! That was the main goal of this whole thing- to achieve elite status- and that I am still going to do. Just my own way on my own terms. Will be alot easier for me lol, and a lot less stressful.

I should be able to still grab a pretty nice chunk of change by the end of the year- probrably something like 70Kish or whatever, which is a fine 2 months still. Why poo? Why do you say f money but then ur doing this to get money? why, poo, why?

Well I'll tell you why! When it gets down to the bottom of it, the money is not for me...it's for everyone around me. By going crazy for these 2 months playing- I am earning myself a hell of a lot of time off next year because I will be making alot more- which means making more memories, more time to spend with loved ones, yada yada...basically just allowing myself to be with others more- and hot damn, that is really nice of me lol.

I learned a valuable lesson- that things are definitely not as easy as you think they are. I honestly thought that this was going to be a breeze for me. I thought I was going to kill the tables like normal, make elite, and be a king of mine own land. But the opposite happened. Oh well haha.

I am definitely relieved that this is over. I was growing a gradual headache everyday and now it's pretty bad. I think it's from all the data processing and shit being far too much then I"m used to. I talked to a sports psychologist during this to try to figure out why i could no longer win at all, and he told me something kinda like that is the reason...that my brain was not used to processing so much information- even though i have done 20 tables fine for quite some time- those 24 tables, day in day out, 10-14 hours day in day out, was just too much info and now my brain is overloaded!

But that's all gonna be gone now as I go out to celebrate this bet being over. Gonna go out to eat with my lovely lady somewhere chill...not sure where yet, but I'm gonna have a drink or two, be a bit naughty, perhaps a victory cigarette for being done.

It's a weird thing....my poker account is way lower then it usually is right now, and i hardly care one bit...it's kinda like, anytime my account has gotten low over these past 6 years, it sucks for a little bit....but then it kinda gets exciting.

It's fun working your way back up the ladder, re-analyzing your game, and seeing progress...I don't know, it kinda excites me in a way that i lost so much lol.

Hmmmmmmmm what else can i say? this shit has been far too long and I think i'm a bit delerious from all this playing and that's why it continues to go on and on.....and on......

End Awn

OK well i can't think of many other things- i'd like to say thank you to everyone who's supported me so much!!! You guys have all been seriously awesome and it is much appreciated.

my family and friends, and especially sandy, have all been great through this. You guys rock...ur fucking awesome....ok ur not that cool.

So I'm going to continue with my live webcam i think as i go for my race to elite bc it's kinda fun or something? And i think i'm gonna continue with this blog because it is actually nice to write a bit.

Oh yea and a special thanks to runhot who has been fucking awesome and a good friend through this!

OK i'm gonna actually go talk to him now about how to become elite a different way and actually make money.

I'll talk to you all soon, continue to smile :)
Poopy